Everyone has their own past. no matter how dark that past is, they always struggle to reach the light.
I too, have a dark past. because of something i done stupidly in JHS, now I harvest the fruit. It’s not that I blame people who know me about their precaution. When they think I’m still what I used to be. I won’t blame them who run away to save themself and the ppl they love from me. It’s okay. I know what you guys do is right.
Inside my heart, I do hope that they will understand. Or at least trying to know me. Not who I am in the past, but who I am now. It’s hard to gain trust, I know it cause right now, I’m struggling to get it. But life is cruel, right? Even tho I escape to another country and try to bury my past, my past will always be with me. And news travels fast.
I try to change. And inside I hope people willing to give me another chance. I know its hard to give someone you distrust a new chance. Can I just change, and they could keep their eyes on me, watching if I really change or not. Maybe the request itself is too much to ask.
When I said those words, I have no intention of ruining someone else’s relationship. I’m just stating my opinion. Maybe the way I state it is wrong… Forgive me… All I can do now is facing the reality, and change. The last thing is… hoping they notice that I change to be a better human.
